Even then, till late evening, I was told that we would continue the next evening with only 3 of us, others were unable to come, as one of the senior poets from the US – was already here in Chennai.So on the 2nd of Dec, I was on standby mode all day and very anxious in bracing myself to get to the venue in the rains. But by afternoon, I knew it was impossible. I also had a reading on the 3rd Dec.
I was angry, dejected, and suddenly poetry, the rains, god, everything and everyone angered me, trust me, I hated it all. But that’s when I decided, that to rise above this emotional and mental crisis, it is a poem and nothing but a long poem that I must write, that too on the floods that had killed my opportunity. I must not wait to write it later, and thus allow it to kill my spirit.
Thus I proceeded to work all day and into the night, to post the poem on the deluge early morning when the internet was finally up.
All I can say is that this experience has surely strengthened my wings. If I had sulked through this, in embracing negativity, I would perhaps have succumbed to it. Now I await the next opportunity. 🙂